Copying and other ramblings from a birthday girl

OK so I found this on a friends blog and thought I would copy it. Hope you all are having a good Monday- I am for a Monday (it's my birthday) so it has to be at least a little good. Even if no one at work says anything. Don't you just hate that, I am not one of those people that likes to announce my birthday but I try and drop hints but no one seems to get it. I did get a card so i know they realize it is this week, but they usually do cake and send out an email, so i am a little bummed about that. I know it is not a big deal as you get older it is just nice to be remembered, I did get some calls from friends and I really appreciate that they remember me (since I can't say I am as good about theirs). I know this does not really make sense just little ramblings going on in my head.

We had a good weekend we went to Arkansas to see Heath's mom and grandmother and to drop Allie off. Sharon (Heath's mom) has this week off so Allie will stay with her till Thursday and then she will bring her back home. I am so glad Allie is able to do this, I remember as a kid going and staying with my grandmother with such fond memories and i like that she will be able to do the same. She is lucky to get to spend one on one time with each set of grandparents and i think it is so important to help build those bonds. I realize it now even more that I have lost one grandmother- there is just something so special about that relationship that you can't get back. So while I miss her I am glad she is there having fun. And honestly Heath and i got so much done yesterday afternoon because Austin took a long nap. It was such a change to just have one again, especially one that will nap. I think Austin will also enjoy the time of just having Heath and I to himself. I know when he is older that will be important for them both. OK well i have rambled on way to long and must really get back to work now. Here is the thing I am copying-

I am: at work right now

i know: I have work that I should be doing

i want: to leave early and play with Austin

i have: 2 more days of work till I go on vacation

i hate: when my kids are sick and there is nothing I can do

i miss: not being with my kids everyday

i fear: my kids will grow up missing out on things because I was not always around

i hear: the cars on central

i smell: my lunch I just ate (Frozen meal- YUM YUM, NOT)

i crave: anything sweet

i search: for random things on google sometimes- ie- my name, the kids, friends etc

i wonder: where my life will be in 5 years - will I still be at this job have any more kids- who knows

i regret: times when I have hurt the feelings of those I love

i love: being a mom

i ache: when my loved ones are hurt or ill

i care: about about what kind of mom people think I am (even thought it should only matter to me and my family)

i always: wash my fair first when i shower (I know totally random but i could not think of one)

i am not: the best at keeping my house clean

i believe: in God with everything that is in me

i dance: whenever I am being silly or want to make Heath or the kids smile

i cry: alot- lets face it if someone around me is crying I will usually do it to- I think the older I get the more I do it.

i fight: with my husband sometimes

i write: to clear my head and remember things

i win: not much- but that is OK

i lose: sometimes at games just so Allie can win

i never: spell word correctly

i confuse: my boss when i talk about clients

i listen: to KISS FM most mornings

i can usually be found: at work or with my kids


i am scared: Of not being a good mom and really scared that something might happen to one of them one day (this is not an everyday fear but it does creep in every once and a while- usually late at night and then i can't go back to sleep till I talk to the man upstairs (God)and give it over to him- after all he knows there life story from before they were here till they are gone- who better to talk to)


i need: to get back to work

I am happy about: having my parents live so close to me now. I never realized how much I missed them being close till they moved back down here.